The life of a topsy-turvy graduate!!!!!

Okay blogs ville i do actually have a very good reason why i havnt blogged in a while. so here it goes, BT is a bastard company, i swear!!! can u imagin my internet wasnt working and i called this people. After the very long hold and difficult dialogue we sha sha got to an understanding that i need an engineer to fix it and dat it would be fixed later that day. So one day, two days, three days, four days....infact as am remembering i still want to vex and change from BT but nt to lie sha dey give very good service their head is just big, secondly i no be the bill payer.

Yes i know that reason isn't valid for disappearing for weeks but i no fit explain everything to ya'll nw *wink* ......anyhoos back to the koko of this blogging , i am officially a GRADUATE.....yeepee! Graduated a few weeks back and although i was a bit disappointed with my result and the fact that with what i have the uni's i applied to for masters will not take me but i have moved pass dat and have become very gratefull to God. As my mum always says "olorun ku suuru" meaning "God is really patient". How did i go to school for 3yrs, wasnt hospitalised, didnt have to leave school b'cos of the loss of anybody, did all my exams, made good friends and finally graduated and am grunting for days about my result. I know people dat died while in school, some are not even graduating. Yes we not going to the same house but when you think about it it's all God's grace so i decided enough is enough oo ayanfe we shall be gratefull and i have been.

I love my family to death (u guyz shud get ready to hear dat often) as in i love them. The most supportive group of people (dnt jealous me people....lol).They have made me feel like i graduated with a first class. Do u knw about 25 people came for ma grad ceremony..... like really!!! its only my family that we had to take the group picture outside. lol. So my sister said to me "ayanfe its not what you have that makes you, its what you make of it that makes you". So instead of going to the great land of NAIJA i stayed and started all my applications again and yeah am still waiting for uni's to reply but dilemma has set in!! I got a great summer internship job at BGL. Basicly if i do the internship with them and i do well dey are willing to take me after i do my NYSC and pay me full time, they also said if i work for a year with them they can send me for my masters. So money isnt an issue here but they offered all this just based on a recommendation, so am really happy about it (and i took it as a sign that my luck is changing....SCHOOLS NEXT PLEASE! .hehehe) but now am very confused as to if i should go to naij and do the internship or just stay and finish sorting out my schools. Staying because the schools might send letters to me or ask for an interview OR going for the intenship because its actually a great opportunity as i intend to move home later in life.

By the way i decided to go home and do the internship although i would say the fact that ma whole fam is home n dey r havin too much fun while i wait influenced that decision small......lol. But on a serious note i want honest opinion as to if am doing the right thing cos if am questioning it something has to be wrong rite?....SO WHAT IS THIS TOPSY-TURVY GRADUATE TO DO???

Wow dat was a lot of ranting but on the side, i have been listening to yemi sax a lot lately...i find the whole sax thing so sweet and relaxing. The guy has mad talent i must say. ya'll should listen to some.....HASTA LUEGO!!


Love always
Ayanfe....in God i trust xxx

CONFUSED.COM ( part 1..on a serious note)

I see none of my dames have had time to blog...dont be fooled oh..atleast i know ayanfe and dara are jobless like me so idk why they are fronting for blogsville. Oh well...lemme blog again so we don't lose the few readers that we have managed to acquire..I mean there are readers right?...I want to believe I have not just been blogging for my fellow dames....

Anyway..so I am confused about soooooooooo many things right now, i don't even know where to start. I 'll start with the more important stuff which is my future...yes...my future, i guess all of it is my future actually but the more important part of my future would be my employability.
So ..as we all know I just finished..uni...but i am not a very happy graduate..I got my results last week and I wanted to go six feet under. Honestly ...it really took me by shock to see my grade and find out I had a lower second class....I am not saying pple that get this have not worked hard or a dumb or anything but considering the grades i've been getting all my life (forgive me if I am sounding arrogant or proud it is not my intention) ...this is a bit below expectations and even though people have said congratulations and it could have been worse..they have not hidden their shock and dissappointment on my performance.
One minute I am feeling angry that my supervisor is making comments like "sometimes good students get mediocre grades"...when he said that to me...i didn't know if i should look at it as a compliment that he thought i was a good student...or if i should take offense in him calling my grades "mediocre"....either way....I know I am not too pleased but I am thanking God atleast that I have been able to gradually deal with it. My really good friend Teni....was on a first class and ended up with a lower second class as well ( yes i know..its like a curse) anyway..she on the other hand has been crying for almost a week now...cant even tell her uncle that she lives with and it makes me wonder y extended family members put unnecessary pressure on people. I mean she's told her mum and her mum though dissappointed has accepted it but this girl cannot still come to terms with telling her uncle...I just hope she doesnt kill herself with hypertension...
So now I have a lower second class....atleast I have graduated right??!! YES....so all the uni's i applied to for masters have a minimum entry requirement of and upper second class...i have called up a few asking if they sometimes consider people with lower grades but they say no outrightly .....now I am struggling to find a good business school to do a good masters so it can make up for my undergrad....right now..my employability in the sector I want to go to is close to ZERO...ZILT....NADA!!...if i said i wasn't scared I would be lying to myself...before you even start filling their applications the first question is have you obtained atleast an upper second class in your undergraduate degree?...if the answer is no, 90% of the employers don't even let you bother filling the application...so really...how do you get a decent job with a lower second class??
So now I am thinking...since I ain't got no job..and I dont have any standing offers for masters yet..( well i have an offer but it was conditional upon me getting an upper second class).....I am considering going to Nigeria for a year..maybe do my NYSC once and for all and get it over and done with...but then if I come back for masters in a year...my 2.2 wouldn't have change..i would still be applying to schools with the same grade....chances are their entry requirements would not have changed...so really does it make much sense....is it possible that some uni's might be willing to offer me place with my grade because I would be more qualified in the sense that I have a degree and one yr professional work experience????......this right here is my dilemma....should i go to naij....should i stay here and lower my standard of unis...just go to any uni that will take me for a masters even if its a crap one??..

confused on a lighter note..coming soon


Monisola